Looking back at the years, I wish I had relished my childhood days; accepted that it was okay to be and act like a child at that moment in time. As a carefree soul, content with the shelter of parental wings, not always yearning for independence, or rather, adulthood.
Maybe this awareness only comes when you need to be an adult, and you realize that the reality of it isn’t what you had anticipated.
I’d be lying in my bed and dream about what I’d become
Couldn’t wait to get older, couldn’t wait to be someone
Now that I’m here, wishing I was still young
Those good old days…
Good old days by Macklemore ft Kesha
What does it take to live in the Present?
For a long time, I have habitually been ruminating over the past and fervently planning for the future. Never really experiencing life as it unfolds—a constant state of anxiety, unable to dull the buzz of the mind.
(Maybe the restlessness develops after the first harmless question: Who do you want to be when you grow up?)
But how is that living? When experiences are either in the past tense or a projection of the future.
So, I make a conscious decision to pause and just breathe whenever the mind starts to wander, to live each moment as it evolves. Taking it all in the good, the tolerable, and the trying.
Cherishing the passing of time. The gradual progression from a fraction of a second to an hour, turning into days, then years.
Because one day, the present will just become the good ole memories.
A basic search on Mindfulness and numerous articles pop up. A quick perusal through some of them, and one notices an increasing use of mindfulness interchangeably with meditation.
It appears, somewhere along the way in the quest for achieving a state of presentness—perhaps it’s a conscious decision— mindfulness became synonymous with meditation.
Scientific research also seems to have been swept up by the fuss on mindfulness and mindfulness meditation.
Despite the increased interest the topic seems to elicit, a fascinating, lone piece turns up—Mind The Hype: A Critical Evaluation and Prescriptive Agenda for Research on Mindfulness and Meditation (Published 2017).
It may be disheartening to discover that there isn’t much concrete evidence to substantiate mindfulness and meditation’s publicized benefits.
So, to be or not to practice mindfulness?
While we are yet to satisfactorily determine the extent of the benefit(s) of practicing mindfulness —providing the hard proofs— I choose to experience life in the Present, learn at that moment, and let go when it passes.
Striving for a mind that’s aware, observing, and non-judgmental as things unfold, not one that dwells on what had or could happen.
Taking in each moment as it happens. Being in control of the mind and not the other way around.
Maybe we always look back and think it was better than it was,
Maybe these are the moments,
Maybe I’ve been missing what it’s about,
Been scared of the future, thinking about the past,
While missing out on now…. Good old days by Macklemore ft Kesha